Our home study is coming due next month and we are finding ourselves asking the hard question. What to do next? We are at the point now that we have to figure out what to do. Do we renew, and if we do are we going to start the adoption process again?
I thought we had left IVF and infertility in the past? And then I find myself considering it for one day. Not soon, just one day. And then I wonder what the hell I’m thinking. It was an emotional roller coaster filled with emotions I couldn’t control and changes in my body that were both good and bad. But is it worth considering?
Then I find myself thinking about all the same things when we first considered adoption and much more. We have this smart, funny, perfect little being who relies on us and adding a new member to the family will have an impact on her in good ways and possibly bad. We have to be ready for that and consider that we aren’t just bringing a baby into our family we are possibly bringing birth parents who could have an impact on her.
So, who knows when or where we will go from here. All I know is that I am happy to have this amazing little girl who entered our world almost a year ago and she brings us so much joy each day so either way we have our happily ever after.